Day 2

I don’t know what else to call it. My goal is to write something every day. I’m working on developing “stick-to-it-tiveness”.

Today was a sad day. Just feeling very out of sorts and upset about my mom. I feel so frustrated and guilty for feeling this way. I look around and I see my space getting back to the same old cluttered space. I’m getting overwhelmed and starting to shut down again. I don’t want to go back to the way things were. It felt so light and weightless to feel good about accomplishing something. Chaos and no motivation. So tired…

There is an awlful restlessness that occurs sometimes. I can’t get comfortable. Too hot. Too cold. Can’t lay down and don’t want to sit up. I sink like a beached whale on top of my brand spanking new mattress with pillow topper no less! Scattered and tattered. Scorched Earth. Heavy sign…

Trying to change my outlook on life and see things more positively instead of negatively.

I had a bright spot today. I had lunch with my one of my high school teachers. It was nice seeing her. She has always believed in me and to have her still cheering me on even now, I am grateful beyond words.

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